My life at the moment: great.

My mood: contented

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:25-34 –

For the time being, I really love my life. Surrounded by a loving family, having a good pause on my study, and enjoying things I like to do have made most of my days during this holidays. I am done with my summer semester for my second year. Now I am left with one more semester to go. It is friggin’ ONE more semester left. I am going to have a lot of engineering based subjects for that semester. Nonetheless, despite the great holidays I had now, I am quite worry on my results. I think I had done well in any other subjects, except for Calculus of Several Variables. I did a lot of careless mistakes there. A LOT. I really hope I will not settle with less than B. I really need a good GPA this semester. I know even in the Bible itself said I don’t have to worry, for God’s grace is sufficient for me. yeah, I am human. I do worry. God, help me. *finger crossed*

Application to university.

I am so stressed out with this. A lot of procedure to be done and I have not even received my conditional offer letter. How am I going to seek for any financial support without it? the i-20 probably will be distribute by next week, the latest. Only then, I can do my visa. Apparently, I don’t even know what I have to do and what are the things required. The TOEFL, I have not take it yet. How could I? PROCRASTINATION. Procrastination is the biggest contributor to the reason why I can’t finish my works. Oh Fyonna! What are you going to do with your miserable life?! Money is another matter. Where can I find that lump of money in this short time? I am so dead. Even if I win the lottery, it would not be enough for me, UNLESS I win the jackpot that worth RM22 mil.

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” -John 14:1-3-

The only solution I have is to continue hoping in God almighty. He knows what I needed and where I should be. He knows everything in the past, present and the future. To Him, I should put my trust and my hope. With Him, I should walk this journey. And for Him, I should do this entire thing; for he had the plan to prosper me, and not to harm me.AMEN.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4:6-7-