i admit that what we had has been slowly fading away. i’m not sure what’s left, if anything at all. it feels different. it’s been feeling this way for a long time, but last night, my denial slapped me right smack in the face. i can’t keep pretending that everything is alright, when in fact, it’s not. i can’t keep pretending that i feel your love anymore, because i don’t. i can’t keep ensuring myself that yes, you do still love me, even though you don’t show it anymore. i can’t keep lying to myself to keep the tears from coming.

and i can’t even remember the last time you told me you loved me……